death... something we cannot accept whether is it expected or anot
so many thots come to my mind when i happen to c a fren blog n saw tat his uncle was taken away in beri cruel way... murder
de flashback of my uncle... someone hu i noe reallie dotes mi when i was young
someone hu will carry mi to sch or call my mummy to sae i gt stomach n den bring mi to his hse when i refuse to go to sch
someone hu will buy mi a full set of 48 color pencil even though his pay is so little(he's juz an odd man)when i juz wan a replacement for one color
someone hu will buy for mi cotton candy when mummy sae tat's bad n wun buy for mi
someone hu i will call for help n i noe he will help when my mummy wans to cane mi
someone hu i can lie on his lap n watch tv
frm dat dae he was diagnose wif de fatal illness to de dae he was taken away was juz one yr... n my mum sae i refuse to gt close to him during de last 2-3mths...
still rem de dae when he was taken away... de doc told us he still gt some time left n told us to go home n haf a rest... b4 we even step into de hse someone called n told us... he was gone...
up to nw... 10+ years le... i believe he's somewhere watching n changing his way of dotin mi... i hope i haf nt disappoint him...
well... u might sae perhaps one yr is too short to accept de fact tat he will b gone somedae... bt i can tell u time is nt crucial... my grandpa was bed ridden for 5 years... 5 years of goin in n out of icu... everytime out of de icu de doc will sae he does nt haf much time left... 5 years... enuff for mental preparation?
n when i haf a fren hu pass away when i was 17 or 18... i begin to think if she could juz b gone like tat... when will b my turn? could i b slping n nt wake up de nxt dae? wad wld i regret if it really happens? will pple still rem mi as time passes?
perhaps i shld treasure de ones arnd mi nw... shld juz let go of my pride n go for wad i wan...
Missing u @ 08 March 2006~
